LOTF chapter 5

Beast from Water
The Fight of Fear
Perspective : Ralph

Today has been a crazy day on the island, and I am thankful to finally be going to sleep. Today I had to call an assembly, because of Jack and the fire. Anger flares inside me just thinking about it. So many things were not getting done. I now lay in a tottery shelter because no one helped us build those, with a sick littlun because of people going to the bathroom in the wrong places, and that is just the beginning! No one is bringing fresh water from the stream, people are starting fires all over the island, and even more important than anything, the fire hasn’t been kept going. My head hurts from the anger at Jack and the thought that we could have been rescued. We were so close but of course, to Jack, nothing is more important than hunting, not even getting rescued. If we were rescued, none of who is chief and what would matter and he wouldn’t need to go crazy about hunting, and have this ludicrous want for power. Things just continue to fall apart. The chant of jack and all his followers still rings in my head, the sound of wild animals almost. Wild animals, that brings me to think about the beast again. The sigh of the sea is so near, I’m almost ready to hear the drippings of something coming from the water, if it is true what that boy Percival said about the beast coming from there, but I need to forget about it. There is no beast, just the heat and our imaginations. Yet still those thoughts loom in the back of my head as the sick littlun near me continues his lamentation and discursive in his sleep about the horrid thing. The dirtiness of our nature; getting scared of beasts, fighting, our strike of competitiveness just makes my head ache even more. But I have made my decision, I will continue to be chief, no matter how Jack and the other boys test me. At least I have Piggy and Simon, honest and smart companions. Piggy is right, if I don’t continue to be chief, we will lose the rules, our decorum, and all become savage, and that can’t happen. I’ve learned that all we have here is each other, and if we can’t work with that everything will just fall apart. We will just have to see what tomorrow brings.